Hello. My name is Nathan. Until recently, I had been clean for the past 32 days. Then with a single decision it was all gone.
I am a tablet addict.
There used to be a time when I never thought I would find myself in this position. I had friends who were on the tablet day in and day out. I saw them and their inability to function without their fix. I had witnessed my family obsessively crushing candy and I swore to myself that this would never be me.
Then one day late last year, I gave in. In a moment of weakness, I went to the nearest Best Buy and grabbed one. I told myself I would only use it when I really needed to. It would definitely not become a crutch like it had for everyone else I know.
As I am sure you know, the tablet is a cruel mistress. Sure, you may start out with the best intentions, but soon you find yourself picking it up more and more every day. Once it gets its icy technological grip on you, there is little you can do to escape it.
I found myself craving it. I would spend hours running my fingers across its smooth surface, looking for apps, downloading book after book. Instead of hiding behind closed doors while using it, I began to take it out in public. I no longer cared if the world knew that I was fully dependent on the beast. The only thing I cared about was the next time I would be able to get another hit of sweet technology.
I found myself watching television, but instead of witnessing what was happening on the screen, I was engrossed in a game of NBA Jam. That is when I hit rock bottom. My attention span was at zero. If I went too long without it, I would find myself desperately grasping at my phone, hoping for the same thrill. I was a full-fledged addict like I swore I would never be.
Somehow, I managed to get clean. I quit cold turkey. For a few weeks, I was finally free of the burden that comes with this type of dependence. Then today, I decided to look at a few things. The next thing I knew, I was in the app store.
“Oh! Monopoly is a free download today!” I said, pushing the download button. Just like that, I was hooked again. My little top hat flipped around the board and before I knew it, I had played three games. Then four. Then five.
Today, I downloaded five new apps, four of which I will probably never use. I convinced myself that I needed the rush again. I do not claim to be perfect, so I accept that this has happened. I guess the best that I can do is take it one day at a time.
Oh! Amazon recommends “Guess the 90’s” for me? I guess there goes my next few days…